SO HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT HOW I FEEL????

SO HOW DO I FEEL ABOUT HOW I FEEL?

HOORAY!!! I finished the last set of treatments yesterday with virtually no side effects today!!
As I conclude this first round of treatments, I am pleased with the fact that the fasiculations remain minimal.

I arrived in Panama telling myself to expect nothing from the treatments, therefore, any benefit would be a victory. Doctors had been very clear about ALS patients getting only minimal, if any benefits and they would not be sustaining. However, on the first day, in the clinic, several of the patients, not doctors, told me about a woman from the Dallas area who has ALS and had just left and had experienced amazing results. So… my expectations sky rocketed with the hope of increased strength through out my body as had been her experience. As the days progressed, and the treatments continued, and no additional strength came, I found myself discouraged. It’s amazing how our expectations can unknowingly get away from us and cause us pain.
I’m reminded how many times this has happened to me in the past in other areas of life including marriage, vacations, work, ministry, etc. Expectations can easily get away from us. I get in trouble with expectations because I have learned that I am wanting to control the outcome.
I took my disappointment to God this morning and again, He gave me peace about just trusting in Him and He gave that peace that truly passes all understanding.
God has replaced my expectations with hope and that hope is in Him.
Therefore, I return to Dallas, contented, with the victory of reduced fasiculations in hand. Additional improvements can occur over the next weeks and months but I will keep my hope in God, not in the treatments.

I scheduled my next appointment to return to Panama City for early November.

Life is a journey and thank you for letting me share this portion of that journey with you I pray that you are enjoying your life's journey too!!

Panama John